Suit Shirt and and Tie edition.
I’m not really sure why this is affecting me so much, but here it goes. A student at my University was found dead this morning, apparently due to suicide. Although I didn’t know him personally, I have very pleasant memories associated with him. At freshman orientation at UB, he was my Orientation Leader. He was someone who made my first experience here so wonderful, and was the first person who really got me pumped to come to college for the first time. Thinking back, he was actually the first student at UB that I ever interacted with. Since college has become such an enormous part of my life, I think this gave him more of a significant role in my life than I would’ve imagined. I think that is why, even though he is someone who I had admittedly almost forgotten about and was never really friends with, I am feeling the way I am.
Switching gears a little bit, I am not 100% positive that it was suicide that caused his death, but if it was, it is even more saddening. Maybe if someone had been there, at the right place at the right time, things would have turned out differently. That’s why I want to say to anyone who reads this, and there aren’t many of you who will, if you’re feeling seriously depressed or suicidal, I am here for you 100%. If you need me to stay up all night and just talk through everything, I will do it.
of my friends who doesn’t desperately want to go back to school. It’s not like my summer has been so unbelievably thrilling that I never want it to end. I just don’t really want to go back to school. I was so depressed and mentally exhausted last fall semester and I’m afraid it’ll happen again. I’m excited for the knowledge, experiences, and challenges Pharm school will bring, but P1 year has a reputation for its brutality. I could really live without going through liking someone who doesn’t like me back again too. I hate blogging about depressing shit, but fuck it! that’s what Tumblr’s for.
My Organic Chem II final exam is tomorrow. I have to pull some magic on this exam or else. My future is actually kind of on the line here so… Lord Jesus help me.